Why?

I don't know. Maybe because of the fact that I hear a beautiful woman singing amazing songs. I can picture the stage: Piano in the center, Norah sitting on the left side for the audience. Drums central on the back part of the stage as usual. The right front part of the stage is being occupied by the electric guitar player, where the rhythm guy is standing on the left side of the drummer, almost anonymously, playing his very important part. Crucial of course, the base player, he is standing on the right side of the drummer, similar situation of the rhythm guitar guy. One difference though, he is standing there because of the fact that the public doesn't pay that much attention to the base, as to the rest of the band. The guys are dressed in black suits with white shirts and bow-ties. As I was saying, Norah sitting front left side of the stage, probably wearing a black cocktail dress. The stage is bathing in blue light, with a spot on Norah, and occasionally on the lead guitarist.

As I'm hearing the introductions of the songs, I realize, that she is pretty close to the woman of my dreams. She is beautiful, has an amazing voice, and a good sense of humour. She is confident, otherwise she wouldn't be travelling across the world to perform. But sometimes, in those spoken parts, you can hear a certain insecurity. She is wondering herself: 'Is the crowd going to like this joke?' or 'Am I sure that I am going to say this?' or my favourite 'Damn, I just said that! Should I have said that?'

You know, she reminds me of somebody with who I used to be pretty close. I just hope that if you read this, you recognise yourself. Because, I think, that she is the older version of who you could be in a couple of years.

Why does this concert appeal to me? Why especially now, at almost 3 at night? I think because of the insecurity. Even though it might not always seem that way, I'm sometimes struggling with my self-esteem. I'm not always as confident as I want to be. I just sometimes wish, that I could go into a conversation, and blow everybody away. Just wow the people I'm talking with, using amazing arguments, or bullshit arguments, but delivering them in a way they seem pretty damn good. Just for once I would like to go out there, in front of the lions, and just fight them off. You know, just like nothing can happen to you, and you are sure that you can take on the entire world.

To link this back to the concert, Norah sounds like how I'm feeling sometimes, but then she finds the courage to open her mouth, and start singing this amazing song. That's a thing which requires an incredible amount of courage. I wish I could find that courage more often than I do nowadays. I want to be able to do that outside of my comfort zone, which is basically on the baseball field.

So that's something on which I have to work.

On that note I'll stop writing, because in five hours I have to wake up again.

I hope you all had sweet dreams while I was writing this, and good night.